These days, anxiety really gets to me.
It leaves a hole in my chest, as if it punched its way through my body, and then, it forcefully stitches the hole back, making my body look unnatural, causing these tight chested pains.
I don't know what to do when this happens. It makes me want to scream and scrape my nails all over my body, scraping to get out this temple we call a body.
I often find myself rocking back and fourth, or twitching, shaking uncontrollably, mumbling harsh words to myself. This isn't tight, nothing seems right in these times.
Maybe it'll get better, maybe it won't. But I want it gone, all this pain causes me grief,it's upsetting others... I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel so useless, I feel like a waste of space, a no good person. I just feel like most days, I'm better off locking myself in a room and not leaving.